Supper, beer and brotherhood.

A lethal mix of poison for the body when supper, beer and buddies get together. I have no qualms with enjoying life but I think they are getting to my health hehehe..gg through my rough patches were made easier with the comfort from my buddies but my body is like giving in to the late nights and unnatural meal time.

Am just about getting better so yah that's how my weekends were, spent bedridden, except for my lil escapade to Darren's place for Capoeira. Putting the sickness aside, I'c come to understand Jackson, Bruce and Eugene a lil better over this time for emotional highs and lows, they'v been there all the time =) hoorah!

So the golden question, how important is love (from a woman) at this point of my life..?? hmmmmm...it definitely is something good to have, but above it will still be God, family, brotherhood and the Love for life. Don't ask why Capoeira is not it cuz Capoeira is in the blood already hahaha..

joe

Down...

Down with flu and fever on a fine thursday. Had too much fun this whole week on Tuesday with boys at Suria and Wednesday when old boys congregated at the gym.

sleepy sleepy....can hardly move my ass in the morning.

joe

Fierce?

This is my idea of what my Capoeira logo would constitute of..a lion..majestic and graceful, the berimbau as the root of our movement, Capoeira in white for the purity of our attitude and our motto, amor e respeito meaning love and respect, the values that all Capoeirista must carry with whereverthey go. Well I guess red and white part of the work of my patriotism =)

Well I'm done with one whole week of intensive lectures!! Dr Malik was especially nice on the last day, generous with "study guides" and making smart comment about examinations. I'm glad its over and now we are down to serious zooming in of topics to study for the real thing! i'm all psyched up for it!! focus joe....focus!

Zi Yan (Liang Yi's bf) had many stories to share of his adventures in China's club scene...couple with how Stacy is continually conned from one place to another..haha, sigh..pull up your socks on mandarin!!

Supposedly meeting my buddies for supper but jackass have to work so early retreat for me as well, meeting fazli for run in sentosa early morning!! Time for a nice lil tan before Suria on Tuesday...thanks for the lobang Macaque!

Eyes closing on me...thank u Lord for Your blessings in my life, I look around me and I know that you have blessed me with many things, friends, family, love and health...give me a knowing heart Lord that I do not greed and be selfish, always giving and placing wisdom above wealth and worldly desires.
I pray that my friend Gwen will be blessed and charged with strength to live and pursue her dreams in making her decision.
Lord only your love endures the test of time and the shallow judgement of men, help me gain strength from you everyday.
Love you Lord,
Amen

Joe

Argh.

Can't seem to get enough rest these days...late for the 7 consecutive working day what in this world is wrong with me!!! F***!

Intensive lecture week again with so much to bitch about after class with Ken and Stacy. Can barely keep my eyes open in class..damn the stupid module. Be skipping class tmr for Capoeira so at least I have something to look forward to, well at least that is the only genuine thing that keeps me looking up despite all the setbacks. Thank God You always show me a way out of darkness =)

The damage is done, but the road to recovery is pretty much smooth sailing, life is in order and as Lee san would say, "This is the spring time of youth!!...wachoaaaaaaaaaaaa....". haha a bit lame but wtf, this is me =) Naruto would probably say," Watashi no Nindo desu.." My way..nothing more nothing less..

joe

Running to??

Just had a relaxing night run along east coast...nice, slow with breeze and the nice after shower coolness in the air. As I indulge in the post run snacks, part of my mind floated to a space and time in the past, thinking..reflecting.

I was running, knowing where I wanted to go all along, knowing with whom and with what pace I am moving at. This direction became blurred somewhere along the line and we lost our ways. Strangely enough I'v not stopped. Still running and moving along but suspecting I'm lost somehow. My other half was running her own direction too. Part of me desire to reach out to her but part of me caged myself in to keep my distance. Tears and pain intensify with every step taken away from each other. But how do I catch her when I'v fallen so hard myself? I thought she knew where she was running to but why is she looking back with every step she takes? Where are we running to?

Dim sum tasted good, well the chaotic shade of sadness and confusion temporarily taken over by the yummy yum yum of Geylang...not that i did anything naughty.

Dear Lord, thank You for your glorious victory over death. Your way is before Your children and help me walk them with righteousness and just. Love You Lord.

In Jesus precious name, Amen.

Gd nite world - joe

Bye Bye Grandpa

After much struggle and battle to keep himself up from the sickness, grandpa finally gave in on the 31st day of August, 2006. Funny he chose to go at a time when no one was there, perhaps yet another act of not imposing on people he left behind.

Grandpa had always been the man i respected as an old school loving father and head of a family...pulling my uncles and aunties..the grandchildren together, and always charismatic in his own way, quiet but wise, with lil words of wisdom in teochew for everybody. Looking at how fillial my uncles and aunties are warmed me up deeply, my grandpa indeed led a charmed life to have kids like these.

I couldn't offer any joss stick and incense and I also did not participate in the rituals in the wake because of the Christinized me but I was glad that God blessed me with understanding from my uncles and aunties to accept and stand by my belief. I only ask God to have mercy on my grandpa's soul.

Be sending grandpa on his final journey in a few hours time so time to hibernate i guess..

Joe